Joshua Jeremiah Broadcast

Rape of the senses. It feels as if my aromatic senses are continually assaulted by forceful, unwelcome intruders - cigarette smoke, perfume, cologne, car exhaust, bus exhaust, and odor of the physique, to name but a few. I have zero choice in the matter to inhale and process overwhelming smells and atmospheric pollutants that not only assault my senses, but assault my internal body. Many times I want to scream out in anger the frustration that I feel at having to suffer from another individual's personal selection of aroma. Personally, I keep myself very clean and wear no cologne whatsoever. I find it quite a courtesy to be able to inhale the given air of the earth and I truly thank those individuals that allow me to do so. Hence, I return the favor. It's bad enough that I have to destroy my lungs by inhaling bus fumes while making my daily commute via cycle. It's even worse to have to suffer a traumatic assault by a sentient individual who chooses to cover their body in some horrid, artificial veil.

I believe that a bulk of my moral compass, as well as a bulk of my value system, stems not only from environmental circumstance (parents, peers, other adults, etc.), but from instinctual self-preservation. How I define "right" and "wrong" shapes how I survive in the world due to my interactions with other human beings. What happens when I, personally, reach beyond self-preservation into prosperity? Depending on my adaptability, collaboration of other instincts, various other cerebral attributes and the outcome of my prosperity, how I define "right" and "wrong" can also shape how I attain my extended goals. Where do I extend my definitions of "right" and "wrong" when the base definitions of those words fail to fully identify my new goals and new, existing conditions? How I define "right" and "wrong" are arenas that I continually seek to revisit because, as human beings, we continue to evolve both physically and intellectually. As human beings are in constant flux and change, we are hardly animals that can be fully defined in black and white terms. The world, by existence, fails to be black and white, as well. As such, when we define terms such as "right" and "wrong" I think we forget to understand that such principles are in flux. Just as simple physic principles break down under extremely large or extremely small conditions, so, too, do I find self-imposed base conditions of the human psyche ("right" and "wrong" ) to break down when the human psyche extends into new arenas of thought and action. As a society we set conditions for generally-accepted behavior. I think we need to understand that the conditions we set are hardly black and white and, as human beings, we are evolving at an extremely fast pace. I believe that we are forgetting to incorporate our own evolution into our moral systems and our value systems through an educational vehicle. Hence, due to lack of education, we still use words like "evil-doer", "demon", "god", etc.

MIA...MIA... Where the hell have I been? Ugh! I have one weird answer for that one good question...I've been steeping in a large vat of my own personal brew...Joshua Jeremiah tea. Hmm...okay...well, what does this crazy Joshua Jeremiah tea taste like? It tastes a little something like this * ...it tastes a little bit fresh, like a new world of employment... * ...it tastes a little bit sour, like an ailing mother... * ...it tastes a little bit bitter, like being stood up for a date... * ...it tastes a little bit salty, like the sweat of working long hours... * ...it tastes sweet...like the enjoyment of life. This Joshua Jeremiah tea is rather chocked full of mixed flavor, eh? To put it in a nutshell, my soul is bit tired lately. I've been working on several projects, including creating several mock-up web-pages for my new job and the Dime-Bag Radio opening intro, along with the show itself. In the meantime, I've also been stood up for a date and I'm helping my mother deal with her physical problems attributed to Ehlers-Danlos. Life is a joy and life is a torrential sea. In the mix of natural upheaval I've had to let go of my broadcast for a bit. I think, for the most part however, I'm back and I'm MORE than happy to be "putting out" again. Welcome back!

Learning: I LOVE it! Learning tends to be a facet of my daily life, although sometimes it's a bitch to go out of my way to learn something when I have other things going on in my life. Hardly get me wrong...I LOVE to learn. Working on projects and attempting to make my life better squeezes out the valuable resource of "time", the key element of learning. It's disappointing to watch things pass me by and have to let ideas and possibilities go because I lack that one valuable resource of time. I have to live, I have to survive and it's a double-edged sword - use time to learn and use time to implement learning. That's a lot of time! To live well and to prosper I have to utilize new information and place it in context. Both the learning and the placement require the fuel of duration - and it's a balancing act of compromise. Ah well, such is life...

Jeremiah: 25d) Audio Broadcast 25d - Apathy

Yo, ho, ho and away I go...to a fresher place where delectables await. This broadcast is a further reflection on my life without Lee. In this case, it's a trip to the grocery store that triggers my myriad of emotions concerning my once friend-and-lover. I've actually been procrastinating a trip to the store for one reason - I had an idea that making my way on a routine trip would shake me into the realization that things between Lee and I are completely over. It's a cliche - it's the small things in life that tend to mean the most, including going through mixed feelings. Facing the fact that my own feelings are just another experience that has happened billions of times over is something I hate to go through. Many times, I hate being like everyone else and having to deal with my emotions is an "in-my-face" reminder of that. Turn me into a robot and pull the plug...please.

Jeremiah: 25b) Audio Broadcast 25b - Someone tried to charge $8,000 on my credit card!

Good Lord! It's taken me forever and a day to get this broadcast up! This Saturday morning audio is actually part I in a multi-tiered recording session which I did for much of Saturday. I just couldn't get enough of the microphone on Saturday! Okay, so why "multi-tiered"? Well, most of my audio is my usual rumble and ramble of thoughts; however, Saturday night I finally plugged in an old, unused handheld microphone, that I had from days long past, into my iRiver. I went over to my friend Jennifer and Josh's house and just started recording. Some of the audio came out quite nicely and some of it quite didn't. I'm going to make an attempt to splice the audio into various segments to make it interesting and endeavour to actually do some audio "heavy work". Hence, my broadcast will be multi-tiered because it will include my regular segment, as well as something a little bit different. In any case, Saturday morning was filled with yawns and several retrospectives of my Thursday night. Visit these various sites for some Toulouse-Lautrec know how! http://www.ibiblio.org/wm/paint/auth/toulouse-lautrec/ http://www.artchive.com/artchive/T/toulouse-lautrec.html http://www.artcyclopedia.com/artists/toulouse-lautrec_henri_de.html http://www.mcs.csuhayward.edu/~malek/Toulouse.html http://www.lautrec.info/ http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Henri_de_Toulouse-Lautrec

Jeremiah: 24) Audio Broadcast 24 - Walking around Grant Park, I consider the necessity of privacy and wonder what the hell I'm doing

I was running around at work today like a crazed journalist with a HOT, HOT news story. Today marks another fantastic first. I received my first fan mail from overseas! For the most part, the mail I've gotten has been from friends and family (big "shout-outs" to Zachary and Chris!) and that's been very heart-warming, supportive and spiritually uplifting (and I mean that - zero sarcasm there!). I've also receive email from other individuals requesting help with their podcasts. That's been fun, a little nerve-wracking (because I feel like a regular support help-desk), and good on one level of recognition; however, up to this point, I had yet to receive any "fan-mail" just dropping me a thanks (beyond those circle of people outside my family and friends). That has changed! I want to give a big thank-you to Lior, a young man living in Israel. Lior sends his love my way and I appreciate that so very much. Lior is Jewish, as well, and on a cultural level, that's a kinship we share. I'm hardly a practicing Jew, so I feel a touch guilty about my open declaration of my Judaism; however I was born with the Judaic culture in my veins, so I often find justification in my pronouncement. I'm a firm believer that Judaism is a culture as well as a religion (I have a lot of firm beliefs, eh?). I guess I need to feel more pride in my Irish side as well, huh? I do have a red beard and love music and I'm a compilation of cultures (as are most individuals of the world. I guess I push my Judaic analytical being ahead of any other traits I possess. I'll work on correcting this. In any case, Lior has my thoughts for the day, so thanks again, Big L! Please feel free to write to me at joshua@joshuajeremiah.name. I appreciate anything you have to say to me, be it criticism or accolade. I love to learn, so if you've got a different point of view, I sincerely want to hear from you!

Why are mind-altering substances illegal? Is it due to the fact that individuals may possibly cause harm to individuals when in a state of inebriation? If that's the case, why not arrest everyone out there who has the slightest urge to hurt another person due to anger? If that's the case, why not arrest every bad driver who may or may not kill someone due to their lack of skill with a large, motorized vehicle? If that's the case, why not arrest any president who causes harm to large bodies of individuals due to his neglect within the confines of his responsibility as governor of an entire nation? My "extra" broadcast mostly talks about office furniture, my anger at individuals who smoke and are rude about smoking and my view of mind-altering substances (I tend to avoid using the term illegal because legality is a subjective mantra imposed on individuals by a large ordered body - primarily any type of government). Personally, I think we live in a world that has yet to hit its stride toward Utopia. I believe in the concept of Utopia and I believe it can happen. I believe we're several thousand (if not million) years from such an ideal. In my own life, I make attempts to deal with situations in the manner that I best see fit within the confines of repression that surrounds us. We have many freedoms, we also have many restraints.

It's time for another Cycle-Cast. It's a Tuesday and I'm on my way to work. Immediately after starting this broadcast on my bicycle, I came across a gentleman who was walking across my path and I took hesitation in completing my spoken words. I remember thinking that I was about to describe myself, including my sexuality, when I held my words to myself due to my own internal fear. Why does such an emotion control my actions when I have little to have fear about? I live in a fairly safe city, in a fairly safe country, where, if I have difficulty with a fellow human being, I can either confront them or turn to an authoritative power (the police, a lawyer, a fireman, etc.). I'm insecure about aspects of my personality, including my sexuality, despite the fact that I've been quite "open" about my life for quite some time. Perhaps my hesitation, or fear, comes from the knowledge that this planet is comprised of many human beings, some of whom are quite accepting and some of whom take issue with difference (and there are some out there who would rather enjoy burning my ass in a large pile of kindling, hanging me on a fence, or simply shooting me). Sometimes the world is scary and sometimes it's exhilarating. I think that the more open communication each and every individual experiences (like podcasting), the more understanding we're going to accomplish as a global entity.

I'm keeping this short and sweet and to the point. Recording a Joshua Jeremiah broadcast is slice of pie, a piece of cake and all those tired old adages. Post-producing audio, however, is a bitch. It's a bitch because I make attempts to both optimize my sound and write original material for the accompanying blog. I continually talk about being busy and I am, so this written broadcast update is going to be brief. Enjoy the musings, enjoy the end-music and wish me luck on getting my shit done. Thanks, everyone!

This Cycle-Cast is a jumbled mix of emotions (damn, I have a lot of those during my broadcasts, don't I?), so between the bitching about getting ripped-off on medication and the confrontation with smokers about their inability to read, we're all in for a monologue of experiential hills.

I like to keep good on my word, so I'm including a picture of my latest toy. In my broadcast, I stated that I was going to feature my new toy (the Esi-Pro Waverterminal U24) as the album art to this audio recording; however, after pondering on the whole "chicken-chat" concept, I fell in love with a different image. I have to reiterate, again, how much headache this little device is saving me. Up to this point I've been using M-Audio products, but I've become more than a little aggravated with their VERY poor customer service and the inherent necessity to load drivers into the computer for their products to function. I know, almost every peripheral imaginable requires a driver to function; however, I think Esi-Pro has uniquely proven that it is possible to create something that is both self-reliant and flawlessly functional. This device is very unique and it's hardly for everyone. I use it because I have a Behringer mixer and it plays well with devices utilizing a TS 1/4" audio connection. Now I have to work on improving my home microphone setup!