Summary: <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> <br> My children are with my ex for right now, and I've been alone and working a lot. I've been really busy. I actually think I might go shop for new clothes today which I haven't done in years--which is making me a bit nervous! At the same time, I'm thinking, "My goodness! I might get a new shirt today!" This is exciting!!<br> <br> While my children have been gone, my mom has come down and helped me. I have amazing parents. They are supportive emotionally and financially. I really need to put a shout out to them, especially my mom who is my biggest fan. There is no way I could do this without her support—emotionally and physically, for she tends my kids. She brings dinner. My mom is a carpenter. She can do electrical work. She fixes my toilets. She came down and helped me assemble a desk and helped put my new office together.<br> Inner Peace and Healing Comes With Time And Work<br> I got exhausted but my mom who is 65 came over and stood on stools to drill holes in the wall for my bookcases so they don't fall over on my kids; I was getting exhausted and she powered through! My mom can do anything! I am so grateful for her and admire her so much. Where my ex-husband used to be my partner in projects, now I still have a partner and it's my mom. And so I can still work on my projects and do the things I love and still have help. She is an angel and I am so grateful for her. My life is infinitely better because of her. I am also grateful for my dad and their financial assistance. I am really, really blessed to have amazing parents.<br> <br> I want to talk about some of things I loved about my ex that I have been thinking about lately. I love projects; I love improving things. I have a really nice home in a nice area, in a suburb north of Salt Lake City, Utah. It's very safe and convenient. My ex and I bought the home together. I love that he is educated. He's a mechanical engineer and also a patent attorney. He's really, really smart with numbers and with problem solving with mechanical situations. I really appreciated that about him. He built a chicken coop that could withstand the apocalypse! I remember watching him work in the yard and seeing how strong he was. He could pick up a railroad tie and drag it around. I was always attracted to him when he was out working in the yard and he had dirt all over his face.<br> Finding Positive Memories Can Help Towards Inner Peace<br> We bought a home together, before we got married (which I don't recommend); there were tons of rocks. We gathered them up and put them in buckets. He would put them in the bottom of the garbage can since it could only handle being about 1/3 full so it wouldn't break. The garbage truck would come and dump it and my ex would put more rocks in and take the can to the other side of the street. This was my idea but he did it willingly. When he was not being abusive he was so willing to help me. He worked from home the last three years of our marriage. I could come home from the grocery store and he would come and help me bring the groceries in.<br> <br> He loved church which is difficult for me now because we attended together. We attended the temple and he is still attending. He hasn't repented. There is a disconnect there. I like that he does love the Church; I just can't figure out how come he can't understand the commandments or obey them...he has the appearance of really, truly loving the Church which I appreciated about him.<br>
