Summary: As I continue the vigorous pace of my personal evolution, the emptiness I feel when engaging with others presents more frequently. In fact, I feel more alone engaging with most people than I do when I’m actually alone. There are exceptions, of course. They are the rare few who are also committed to their own personal evolution; free of all doctrine, be it Christianity, Buddhism, Hinduism, science, politics, technology, or any other form of dogmatic thought. These are the few who have progressed beyond the shallow awareness of seeking to know more to become “enlightened”, “awakened” (as if there is a finish line), or to become a “better person”; to the deeper awareness of knowing their connection to all life and choosing to live accordingly.<br> While the majority of humans live their lives from the coma of culturally conditioned habituation, many others profess their commitment to some sort of spiritual search. Few, however, are willing to move beyond the search in order to find, own and engage the limitless nature of their potential. Even fewer are willing to engage this potential in relation to the severity of our planetary predicament. It takes great courage and Self trust (Soul trust) to be willing to stand this naked, liberated from the confines of our finite mortal nature; intimately connected to the infinite Self that defines what we truly are. In a comatose global collective, how does one converse with individuals so profoundly bound to the illusion of our finite physicality? How does one connect to the disconnected who are utterly clueless about their disconnect? How does one who is connected with their Self relate to those who don’t even know there is a Self to know? If one is not awake, how can they live an awakened life? How does one wake up when they don’t even know they’re asleep?<br> My capacity to talk about the mundane and meaningless in our “conversation atrophied” world, is absent. I no longer have the tolerance or patience for conversations lacking in depth and intimacy. Sure I can calibrate for common ground on the terms of others and “meet folks where they’re at”, but I can’t deny that it doesn’t leave me feeling more empty in the end. So I find myself spending less and less time with more and more people. I’ve worked so hard on myself that I trust what works best for me. Self compromise serves nobody, least of all me.<br> The conversations that mean most to me defy the monotony of the terrestrial, and few are willing to step into this world free of opinions, advice, dogma, and other forms of judgment. Few are willing to take the deep dive into acceptance of a reality that doesn’t map to the longevity of our species, and of Life on this planet. Even fewer are willing to become so much more as a result. Not unexpectedly, few conversations leave me feeling satiated. Most just leave me feeling empty. In fact, the mortally wounded planet is less noxious to me than most of the humans I share it with. Gaea, I can trust. People, not so much. Needless to say, I choose wisely who I spend my time with.<br> Let’s face it, as a generalized global species human beings are disconnected: from the natural world; from birds, fish, reptiles, insects, and animals; from each other; and most importantly from their own Selves. Lack of Self intimacy is the source of all separation in our world. It is the reason for our vastly degraded collective consciousness; the reason for our global <a href="https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Idiocracy" target="_blank" rel="noopener noreferrer">idiocracy</a>. It is also the source of all brutality in the world, from self-loathing to the loathing of others; to war, animal slaughter, and the mindless decimation of the planet.<br> Most people are intimately connected to their externally sourced distractions: their personal stories and dramas, their busyness, consumption patterns, jobs, addictions, pornography, tv shows, workout schedules, and most notably, their devices.
