Summary: I learned about my Native heritage by reading it in my estranged father's obituary the week he died. This is serialized show about what I did after that.
We've reached the end of the trail, and I'm realizing I'm never going to find what I'm looking for. Good Grief is an independent production by me, Sam Sabin. Editing help for this season came from Lydia Thompson, Rachel Wolf and the Center for Documentary Studies’ Audio Institute. Theme music by Indian Wells. Other music in this episode by Podington Bear. This podcast was funded partially by the UNC Creative Writing Program and the Bolch Family. Special thanks, always and forever, to my family for letting me record them, my friends for putting up with my anxieties and being my greatest editors, and to you, the listeners, for sticking with me through this wild and crazy ride.
I've exhausted every avenue I can think of to get any sort of straight answer—every avenue except one. How do you write a letter to your estranged, dead father's wife?
I've reached a point where I don't know where to turn next. What do you do when you realize that the only person who has the answers you’re looking for isn’t around to give them to you? Turns out, one of my close friends is going through the same thing.
One week, my half-brothers are learning about my existence and adding me on Facebook. The next week, we're meeting for the first time in a random North Carolina sports bar. Yes, it is the most awkward first date you can imagine. I'm still left feeling helpless because OF COURSE.
When I left Akwesasne, I knew I needed to confront the one person who I had been avoiding: Mom. Subscribe on iTunes or wherever else you listen to podcasts. New episodes released every first Monday of the month. Episode extras every two weeks.
On my last few days of my stay in Akwesasne, I started to realize that maybe—just maybe—this trip was about way more than just re-connecting with my Native identity.
Ep. 2 Bonus: Sue Ellen Herne
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Reading about the origins of my Native heritage in my estranged father's obituary gave me a way to confront my relationship with him—or the lack thereof. Good Grief is an independent production by Sam Sabin. This pilot episode was produced and edited at Duke's Center for Documentary Studies' 2016 "Making It Sing" Audio Institute.
A look at Season 1 of Good Grief, a podcast by Sam Sabin.