The bible is centuries old! Is it really a credible book for over coming addiction in this day and age? How do I trust God’s book when I’m having a hard enough time trusting God? Or I’ve herd this all before, What does it really mean to put on the full armor of God? Music by fireflight and Curt.

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Sexual addiction and the prosperity gospel? What does that mean? Who am I gonna be? Why am I where I'm at.Leona lewis - Bleeding love lyrics. My heart melts into the ground Found something true And everyone's looking round Thinking I'm going crazy But I don't care what they say I'm in love with you They try to pull me away But they don't know the truth My heart's crippled by the vein That I keep on closing You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love You cut me open Trying hard not to hear But they talk so loud Their piercing sounds fill my ears Try to fill me with doubt Yet I know that the goal Is to keep me from falling But nothing's greater Than the rush that comes with your embrace And in this world of loneliness I see your face Yet everyone around me Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe But I don't care what they say I'm in love with you They try to pull me away But they don't know the truth My heart's crippled by the vein That I keep on closing You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love.Shout outs to xxxchurch and higher-calling.com Keep fighting!

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Part 2 of Words that put heart in them!  Email response show. Is my negativity toward 12 step and religion hurting people? From The Bible, Luke 3 The message version. Luke 3:16-17 (The Message) But John intervened: "I'm baptizing you here in the river. The main character in this drama, to whom I'm a mere stagehand, will ignite the kingdom life, a fire, the Holy Spirit within you, changing you from the inside out. He's going to clean house—make a clean sweep of your lives. He'll place everything true in its proper place before God; everything false he'll put out with the trash to be burned."  18-20There was a lot more of this—words that gave strength to the people, words that put heart in them. The Message! But Herod, the ruler, stung by John's rebuke in the matter of Herodias, his brother Philip's wife, capped his long string of evil deeds with this outrage: He put John in jail.

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 Email response show. Is my negativity toward 12 step and religion hurting people? From The Bible, Luke 3 The message version. 16-17But John intervened: "I'm baptizing you here in the river. The main character in this drama, to whom I'm a mere stagehand, will ignite the kingdom life, a fire, the Holy Spirit within you, changing you from the inside out. He's going to clean house—make a clean sweep of your lives. He'll place everything true in its proper place before God; everything false he'll put out with the trash to be burned."  18-20There was a lot more of this—words that gave strength to the people, words that put heart in them. The Message! But Herod, the ruler, stung by John's rebuke in the matter of Herodias, his brother Philip's wife, capped his long string of evil deeds with this outrage: He put John in jail.

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Email response show, lets get more stories of victory! The victory over this addiction (or any other for that matter) has to do with a deep heart level thirst. The question is a thirst for what? The most important step of the 12 steps? Step one “you have a problem. Your life has become unmanageable.” But how deep does that go? Are we really ever in control really? Why is this world so broken? That is the question, Like a splinter in your mind driving you mad. A listener said to me “it seems like this is a thinking disease”, I believe there is some truth there. But how deep are our thoughts?

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Episode 65 - Visualization, Impulse control - The life giving freedom of self control. Narcissism is not freedom, What does it mean to say no to your self? “Repentance” is a word a lot of stuffy religious people have sole in order to control people through fear and shame. Real repentance is, in part why your reading this right now. Your looking for change, looking answers, Right? Is something in your behavior controlling you? Your not in control of your own flesh? Not in control of you? If your seeking your are repentant.Music by Ruth, Against me! and Jonah 33.

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Episode 64 -The Church is great at helping to remove stains. Drugs and alcohol addicts are welcomed with open arms. I believe the church has compassion for the hurting hearts of addicts.But sexuality runs deep, Sexual addiction, sexually compulsive behavior or same sex attraction is deeper then getting out the cleansers out and scrubbing the dirty stains off the surface. What happens when all the getting saved, prayer and all the recovery material does not seem to work?What do you do when you still haven’t found what your looking for?Music by U2, Pillar and This Beautiful Republic.

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A Talk by Russ Shaw did to a men's group in Everett WA,USA. Addressing Christian sub-culture about getting real. if we believe Grace is Amazing then why are we faking it?Pride is one of those invisible barriers that blocks you from even asking the question!

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Episode 62 - Reloaded the 2 dog story.The chief was sitting at the edge of the village, obviously deep in thought. He sat there for hours and hours, seemingly unmoving. The tribe was beginning to get worried and restless, but nobody wanted to disturb him. An elder eventually got up his courage and walked over. 'Chief,' he asked, 'what's going on? You look so troubled!' The chief just sat there, and the elder thought that he had not heard. Finally the chief spoke. And he said: 'You know, it's like there are two dogs fighting inside of me all the time - a dog of glowing light and beauty and a dog of fire. This dog is not glowing with the light but, life choking smoke and consuming fire. He is mean, irritable, and angry. It is driven by fear, and has me look at the world through the lens of shortage, struggle, and judgment. This is how I am when I'm feeling small, anxious, and spiritually disconnected.The dog Light is guided by love and kindness. This is the part of me that longs to live with purpose and to have an impact on the world. It is my God given soul my authentic self, my essence and my creativity live here, as does my intuition, faith, and sense of connection and compassion.. And the fire and smoke dog is constantly fighting the glowing light dog.' The elder looked at the chief and said quietly, 'Chief, so which dog wins?' The chief sat quietly for a moment, and then replied: 'the one I feed the most.'I totally identify with that story and this one. I am this women, If we get honest we all are! The Woman At the well.

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A letter to Ash. A christian man publicly in the think of the fight!Ash I'm not some guru dude, I don't have it all together.You think I never felt like that? Wanting to quit? having QUIT! It's way to hard I can do this. Truth be told you can't! On your own!God did not do this to You ASH! You and I did it to our selfs God did not give it to us! That is a lie from hell. The guilt and shame you feel is from the accuser. Revelation 12:10 Calles the devil the accuser of the brethren accusing them day and night.Read more at ASI247.org

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This show is expliced! Russ gets deep and does not hold back his heart for this ministry. Luke 15:1-10 (NIV) The Parable of the Lost Sheep!1Now the tax collectors and "sinners" were all gathering around to hear him. 2But the Pharisees and the teachers of the law muttered, "This man welcomes sinners and eats with them."  3Then Jesus told them this parable: 4"Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Does he not leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? 5And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders 6and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, 'Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.' 7I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent.

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Agent Smith: "Human beings are a disease, a cancer of this planet - you are a plague. And we... are the cure." 2 Corinthans 5:21 God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.Jesus became my sin, he became a sex addict a liar an adulterer. He paid the debt. In him I’m righteous.Faith and a deep relationship with Jesus is understanding Love! And what god has already done! Revelation 12:11 says “They overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death.Trinity: "The answer is out there, Neo. It's looking for you. And it will find you, if you want it to."

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The Matrix and "ALONE" what is this feeling of being trapped inside ones self? Loneliness is an emotional state in which a person experiences a powerful feeling of emptiness and isolation. How do we get fully Alive and bust out of the matrix?

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Episode 57 - Building it to fullness - Email resoponce show. Where do we get bricks to build this thing?

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Episode 56 - Building? What? How? Straight talk on purity!Building on a landscape what does that mean?Tips and news on home building I want to build my house the best cost efficient and environmental friendly way.I built my home doing all my own labor. Mortgage-Free!: Radical Strategies for Home Ownership.

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Sex addiction recovery... Good News for home bulding!According to a news release, the women are building the home with the Winchell family as part of Habitat's Women Build program. ...He immediately made arrangements to visit Williams and promised to begin building her home on January 2. Williams had received $10000 in material from the ...Nehemiah 4:18 And each of the builders had his sword strapped at his side while he built. The man who sounded the trumpet was beside me. Lawrence-Douglas County Fire Medical personnel rescued several residents this morning from a burning apartment building. Firefighters were called shortly ...To be deductible, the insurance must have been paid on “home acquisition debt” — debt incurred to buy, build or substantially improve a principal residence ...

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Episode 54 - What do I do with my heart? (part 2)Church people many times give good manerd advice say "Just Trust God" Or "Just Repent and you'll be fine!" WHAT DOES THAT MEAN! Another year should I do another resolution? Has anyone really been in my shoes? Has any one felt how I feel, stuck in this prison of habitual sin. How do I get to real heart change? Can Jesus really help me? Or is that just more religion and psychology? So what do I do with my heart? Over coming sexual addiction is no walk in the park!

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Episode 53 - So another year should I do another resolution? Has anyone really been in my shoes? Has any one felt how I feel, stuck in this prison of habitual sin. How do I get to real heart change? Can Jesus really help me? Or is that just more religion and psychology? So what do I do with my heart? Part 1

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Unberlla, Love relationships and Identity - Email show.Sexual behavior is inescapably tied to intimacy! Email responce show. heres some lyrics for ya! Rihanna - UnberllaWhen the sun shines, we’ll shine togetherTold you I'll be here forever. Said I'll always be a friendTook an oath I'ma stick it out till the endNow that it's raining more than everKnow that we'll still have each otherYou can stand under my umbrellaYou can stand under my umbrella(Ella ella eh eh eh)Under my umbrella   1 John 4:10 This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. 11Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. 12No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us. ASI247.org

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Sexual behavior is inescapably tied to intimacy! Conflict is a state of discord caused by the actual or perceived opposition of needs, values and interests between people.How dose this even work in the reality of overcoming and the aftermath of sexual addiction? Ever feel alone. I mean down deep? Alone... like no one really knows you?Does your spouse know you? down deep does she/he know your deepest desires, dreams and fears? Does he/she know deep things like the things that made you feel safe or afraid as a child?First heart felt disappointment? First heart felt sense of belonging for you or him / her?How about her/him? do you know these deep, heart level things about her? Have you asked her/him? brought this stuff out?Russ@asi247.org

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The same way that people can become addicted to drugs, alcohol or gambling, they can become addicted to sex,  anything from Internet sex to obsessive masturbation to affairs. How do we pick up the pieces and repair our relationships when the betrail cuts so deep? How do we connect in the midst of this? How do we discover the one, in the two becomeing one? Who are we? What have WE become?

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Episode 49 -Yom Kippur, two goats what dose that mean? Blood sacriface and scape goat. What? is Russ Shaw hates homosexuals? Not, sorry. I love all people. Judgeing some with out knowing them.. hummm isn't that what the evangelicals are guilty of? Don't become what you hate. Don't make the scape goat an idol.

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Are you so sick of it!? How sick of it are you? How bad do you to get clean!? How bad to you want freedom? It is possible! You can get free of this. I tell you as a fellow travler through this life. You can Be YOU with out the affliction of sexual sin. Music by Flyleaf.

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Episode 47, Speed Kills! Russ announces the continuation of season one. Russ encourages you to continue to uncover your real Identity. See your self the way God sees you. The adventure of discovery from Surface Identity to your Subconscious mind (triggers) and ultimately your Heart and Soul.

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eEmail announcements and email responce Show!

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I'm Trouble!? ASI criticism and the analysis and evaluation of ASI. Russ Shaw responds to critics collectively. Music by Kill the Alarm.

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ASI End of a Season! conclusion of the first season part 2 of 3Email storys an act of war. A courages step in to battle! Music by kill the alarm! http://killthealarm.com

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After a long time Gone Russ Is back! Finishing up and tieing uo some lose ends to Close one door and open another! ASI End of a Season! Conclusion of the first season part 1 of 3

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How does our sexuality show love?How does our sexuality pull us off track away from love.Dan talks about the roots of a desperate sexuality that start to pull us toward a prison of our making. Luke 18:9 - 14Music by BOH Bohmusic.com

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The Monster Under My Bed, Secret Sex Sins. Allen Creek Community Church ac3.org Marysville, WA U.S.A. ~ 360-659-SEEK. Music by : Jacques Grant -Things_I_Used_To_Do

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Episode 40 - The Last Bomb goes Off! Russ set off the last bomb on July 31, 2006. Love, True love tells the truth and sets priorities. Love first, then the rest of life. I love my wife enough to tell her the full truth. Making myself totally vulnerable.

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Episode 39 - Let go of the fire. Fire of love or fire of anger? Chose the fire of love or fire of judgement? The fire of faith or fire of fear? Rise above physical and emotional adversity.

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Short show on the 4th of July. Morning not striking.Choose healing instead of self destruction and new music! with new music!

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 Russ responds to some Email and reads some Email. Russ challenges religion and faith with more on vampires and Eli!? If your a judgmental Christian this show my be offensive to you but you still need to hear it.asi247.org

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Nothing can lock a soul up in total hell like isolation like sexual abuse. Russ asks Larry what kind of approaches offenders use to keep victims in the sick cycle abuse. What makes a child become a sex offender? How in this sex saturated culture of 2006 do we protect our kids from childhood sexual abuse?

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Nothing can lock you up in total isolation like shame. Alone in solitary? Locked up in that cell of shame. Russ talks about a whole new level of shame you may or may not have identified. Childhood sexual abuse.

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Feel like you’re in prison? Russ encourages you to make a prison brake! Plan your jail break now! Time is going by. Reach for the courage to fight and dig your way out. Break down the walls that are holding you captive. Prison is not a place for rehabilitating. It’s a place for punishment.

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Sex or Porn addiction? Feel like you’re in prison? Russ encourages you to make a prison brake! Plan your jail break now! Time is going by. Lets get our head in breaking free! Is your mind consumed with digging out of this prison? Or are you getting used to the scenery? Are you still saying I need to feel this way I deserve this. Prison is not a place for rehabilitating. It’s a place for punishment.

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The devil is no respecter of persons. He laughs, smiling as he's killing You, Your family and your future. Your not totally helpless against the attacks of the enemy. Russ gives you some new strategies to get you up on your feet and back in the fight! Lets start playing offence along with our defense! Let take back some ground in our lives! Pray! connect! Today!

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Countless lives are being ruined by sexual sin. It infects, corrupts, and devastates. It destroys relationships, families, and lives. Everywhere men turn today, sexual temptation rears its ugly head, and the internet has made it easier than ever to get caught in the trap of sexual sin. It takes more than a little effort for men to resist the temptations. It takes a plan. Russ interviews Joe Dallas author of The Game Plan Men's 30-Day Strategy for Attaining Sexual Integrity.

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Interview with the next helper in Russ's bomb squad! Ever say this? Why do I continue to fall? Why won't god just take this from me? Dose God hate me? I can't possibly please God so why even bother. My behavior was a byproduct of my heart leaking toxic waste. I needed the Haz Mat crew of guys like Rick Thiessen!

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Who really knows you? Ever say You don't know me! Inside your heart or out loud in a emotional lashing out! Plus Who do you love? Ever feel like I messed up to much this time. Ever feel like "It's over?" Russ encourages you to Never Quit! Ever! Never ever give up on your relationship with your spouse! Never Give up!

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So why do we keep our secrets? what are those emotional reactions to our everyday aches pains of life? What nee jerk emotional reactions are keeping us in slavery to run and hide from reality? Why do we do that Porn, Drink, Drug, Gamble Shopping? All addiction suffers welcome on this one and all ASI Shows!

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Episode 26 - Porn or sex Addiction? Aching Hunger? sOver and over the fight can be many things to you. How do we gain ground in this mind vs. spirit battle. Russ answers more Email and talks about new ways of looking at the battle more strategies to help kill this aching hunger!

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Email response show 21st century strategies to help you get up and fight! How do we find deliverance and victory when we have tried and failed so many times? Russ shows you some realistic steps toward Application and strategy by changing your attitude. First Get up then Walk then fight! Then when your feeling beat down having the faith and strength to repeat.

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 It's spring how are those seeds doing? Recovery is like a growing plant. How is your progress? Feel like birds keep eating your seeds. Don't seem to be growing in your recovery? Russ how did you get your tree to grow and produce fruit? Attitude that's how! Russ gives you some tools on how to grow a new attitude!

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Dose calling it "sex addiction" Take away some personal responsibility? Once and addict always an addict right? Russ talks about the attitude reactions needed to break those chains that keep us in slavery.

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ASI April 2006 is number one in addiction on iTunes Why is that? How come this show is marked Explicit? Who is Russ Shaw?

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 Russ sits down with the captain of a bomb squad. Pastor Dan Hazen who talks about healing and equipping.  Turning on the lights and sirens arriving on the bloody seen of this very real 50% divorce rate medical supplies ready! How do we love the sinner and hate the sin when a loved one or a sibling in our family is reeling in pain? Are there bandages for those hearts emotionally bleeding all over the place?

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Russ talks to those affected by Sexual acting out as well as the offenders them selves and those is denial. The Bomb is ticking! tick tock Russ's bombs went off more than once each devastating blow more damaging than the next! You can defuse the bomb you can change the future!

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James T. Brooke talks about the hours the days or weeks after the bomb has gone off in his Book Take a Bullet Have you been caught cheating? Has some one you love "Fell" in the area of sexual integrity? This power full book talks about the raw emotional pain of an affair and what happens next. You love or feel you loved this person so where do we go now?

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James T. Brooke talks about the hours the days or w